Monday, July 22, 2013

I am the river
in which you drain
your poison.

I don't complain;
I flow, I flow
like blood from fresh wounds.
But more importantly,
I feed you myself
for your incestuous deaths.

Sunday, April 14, 2013

From the corner of my eye
I watch him make black tea,
opening and closing drawers
searching for satchets of sugar.

I make a drama of not noticing,
flipping through grainy channels
& letting an old song play,
to which we had once made love
much like playing in the rain.

When he is done
we sit on the edge of the window,
and share a cup of kattanchai
mingled with dregs of rum
unwashed from last night.
And in disquiet desperation,
I decide not to forget
the yellow magnolias
looking bright sunshine
against curtains of fake lace.

We then remind each other of things -
flight tickets (got on a discount),
brush left in the bathroom sink,
underwear thrown in a haste,
charger  with a crack in its pin,
bills to be split and cabs to be booked,
and flaccid condoms that had to be thrown -
All the while careful,
not to talk of love and other such silly things.

Friday, April 12, 2013

I was always amazed,
at the ease with which you said "love",
like it was 'fish' or 'rain' or 'blood',
"What is there to it" you would ask,
and repeat in my ears
like a chant,
Love. Love. Love.
and I would carry it afterwords
like a talisman tugging at my throat.

On my tongue the word tasted of death,
of loneliness residing in the center of my breasts,
Yet I  look for ways to show you ,
the countless times it foamed the corners of my mouth,
Like when I look up from my book
to watch you sleep with eyelids half closed,
Like when I feed you two white round sugar pills
and steal one for myself,
hoping to feel your ease after breathlessness,
Like when we are away
and everything could be forgotten,
how I can close my eyes and hear your lips brush my ears,
and inside of my eyes like a dream
I  can bring myself to say it all aloud.

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Thursday, March 14, 2013

Loneliness walks in, stealthily on his feet,
like the black cat in my alley
crouching in fear at a stranger's footfall.

He hovers around silently
and sits at the windowsill of my heart
like an obedient child
looking on at his recuperating mother.
Together then in silence,
we listen to the strange cries of peacocks mating,
as if they were Morse codes waiting to be deciphered.

And finally when I turn to him tired,
and yearn like a woman in love,
he wraps me warm
a wounded soldier's homecoming.

Saturday, January 26, 2013

The doors are fastened and locked,
I am enclosed in this thought,
I become thinking,
hairs stand on my arms,
spiraling into kites reaching for the clouds
which coil and curdle into mazes,
puzzles of endless thoughts,
winged and spitting fire,
tired with inertia, yet
spurting out to freedom,
And just when the knots of agony
unfasten to leave along,
you barge in,
smiling always...
sickening my stomach
housed with thoughts and more thoughts
waiting to die and live therefore.