Saturday, January 28, 2012

What to cook

You go to sleep
and on the other end of the world
I wake up, 
both wondering what to cook for the day.
I write poetry on the back
of my theory book on the Melian Dialogue
biting the ends of my pencil,
dreaming like granules of sugar
pelting on your Teflon pan in which you’ll later bake a pie
with bananas ripe.

Your worry lines will deepen
with the red markings on the report cards you have to sign,
with the lunch returned half eaten , soggy labor thrown into the sink,
with the sagging lose flesh around the waist, the electricity bills, the rings around the eyes, the dying
jasmine plant, the maid and the batter she steals.

I will match my words to his in obstinacy
over heated arguments on things I really don’t care,
saying intelligent things for him to hear,
hunting for methodologies to find myself
 that will satisfy the questioning panel,
remember the delayed period with the ensuing relief
the sticky warmth of the menstrual blood.

and in bed we are both as taught to be ,tigresses
ensnaring  our men who mark us with their semen,
unassured always, in fear or anticipation of his betrayal.

Like reflection in a river,
in apathy of the other side,
like following shadows in the dusk
our grammar intersect
 yet never blend into the other’s existence,
but if we ever meet,
I’ll hold your hands in mine and
you’ll brush off the mirrors at the ends of my eyes.
People would say of us “but she seemed so normal”,
And yet one day,
before sedations of normalcy injected into our veins
by different hands, different beds to rest, different clocks to time,
We’ll throw our hair back,
And run with the wind
in the direction of each other
knowing you exist,
knowing I exist,
knowing the embrace will never realize,
we’ll scream out our rage,
despair and disgust  then
happy and hysterical,
we’ll stop worrying about what to cook
for a day.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

And a poem of mine was put up on Muse India's website :)

From my rectangle box window panel
which the aircraft instructed me to keep open,
draped in diaphanous white muslin fog,
the world beneath resembles
a topographic sheet.
As we descend and ascent through the clouds
resembling  chunks of snow
floating in the icy blue sky,
beneath, blue curves around green swathes,
mounts brown and then the sudden crescents,
like a model you made
and painted in school cutting
out thermacol sheets
and crayoning in copper blues and mustard yellows .
But somewhere among the silvery dots,
the clusters, the cities,
I have left my everything
in a flat fading away like a freckle
where my love resides.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

What does one do with profane memories??
Make love to it and breed more blurred incestuous ones?
or weave a song out of it
and wear it as a green glass necklace around your neck
or toss it into the overflowing red bucket
where you threw your two day old black petticoat
with shame smelling all over it